1430H : forgive me

Dear God,

I know this is supposed to be a new start.  I believe that I am preparing myself towards a greater future - I know that I have moved on, because I felt it.  I am beginning to adore the turns in my life in ways which I can't really explain.

But, please - forgive me for this part - because my patience has its own limits.

I mean - setakat nak pergi masjid semata-mata nak so-called-'jemaah' untuk doa awal tahun, tapi anak-anak (read: anak-anak bukan singular, ok?) terbiar dekat rumah --

demi anak kecil yang berumur kurang 2 tahun yang masih berpaut pada susu ibu meraung-raung sampai tertidur, demi si abang yang bikin kacau sini sana untuk secebis perhatian --

Serius, aku rasa macam nak lempang aja manusia tu!

Expecially the part when she complains about her husband who are not sensitive enough to give her this and that --

Serius weh, rasa macam nak lempang 10 das!

Ampun, Tuhan. 
OK, cukup.