event and age

Honestly, tiap kali selepas setiap sesuatu yang Tuhan turunkan dalam hidup aku -- be it the funny part, or the heartbroken part, or the irrate part --  I would always think that 'that' is definitely going to be an entry in the blog.

But, I guess the age maturity buat kau rasa macam setiap sesuatu tu dah tak berapa nak jadi begitu signifikan untuk dicoret-coret dalam blog.  I mean, it meant something to me, but I just don't feel the urge to construct a proper entry pertaining the the funny/heartbroken/irrate part and just let it be only a part of the memory.

Blogging used to mean something to me.  Tapi, bila all those prying eyes uses my words to be near me, or misinterpreted the entries, and being blamed for things that may not be initiated by me, dan ouh, do I have to reminisce the part of that crazy women harassing me - buat aku rasa macam blogging bukan lagi cantik macam dulu.  It's ironic that people think it's OK to become a jerk towards other people in real life, and yet, when it is written, they became berserk.  It's like, since blogging makes your act kind of like a black and white thing, it suddenly become a big NO-NO and the blogger is the one to blame for only trying to understand her own emotions.

Takpelah, it's the best thing for everyone.  Rasa nak trashing about other people pun dah tak ada (Alhamdulillah) -- unless kalau tengah sakit hati yang amat :-D  So far, agak happy dengan keadaan sekarang.  Walaupun agak busy waktu tengah-tengah semester ni dengan report yang berlambaknya dengan kerja part time nya, dengan projek yang tak berjalan-jalannya, aku jumpa satu jenis satisfaction dalam kesibukan (walaupun kadang-kadang memang rindu bangat sama aktiviti ronggeng rokiah sama best buddy!)

Mungkin ada hikmah hidup aku diranapkan satu waktu dulu.  Sebab ranap-ranap gitu buat aku rasa 'bahagia' ini comes in the most simplest manner.  Family, kawan-kawan, TV dan kucing :-)  ....dan report yang berjaya disiapkan...(?)

Ok, point aku buat entry ni cuma nak cakap, aku akan menjadi manusia yang membosankan selepas ini :-)  Less conflict, less hazard, less damage.  Let's just play it safe.